Homie, it is 3am right now and the 2nd night in a row where I can't sleep. Yes I am back in Germany and everything here is even worse...ha and silly me thought it doesn't get worse...! Babe, I am waiting for a text message, an email, a call. But I know that I will never receive anything like that again. Jonathan, where are you? I wished you would be here with me. I miss you so much and need you. I need you to wrap your strong arms around me and tell me that it's gonna be okay. I need you to laugh with me and cry with me. I don't wanna cry by myself...I miss you so much homie!!!