its was almost a year ago now and they say time heals all wounds, well this is a wound that doesnt seem to heal. I might pretend like I have dealt with it but I m only kidding myself, I can still hear your voice in my ear, and feel your arm so comfortlable strong around me, hear your heart beat. Its sooo hard when you loose people in your life that become like a peice of your body and soul, Jonathan there are soooo many moments in my day when I see something that reminds my of you, and my heart breaks, and I feel my soul tear in two, because I cant understand or justify the pain, I wonder why you and my sister are gone and I have to stay here and have only memories and pictures to look at, I keep looking over out pictures from Seattle and remembering how happy we were, how excited we were about life. I remember the nights we would stay up and talk about all the things we wanted to do and experience together, rememebr Miami, you promised we would go there..I am reaching out to you now, Im asking you to reach out that strong hand of yours and embrace me once again through these troubling times, help me to cope with having to relive September 26 again and remebering that I had to let go of only an image of you behind the doors at the hospital and having to say my goodbye from a far. Im thankful I see you so much in my dreams but it makes it so unbareable having to wake up to reality, that my strong American soldier is no longer beside me....I miss you boo..help me now