Yesterday I was sitting in a bus to an amazing place and all the time I thought why life is treating me like that. I was thinking about all we could do together on your birthday and once again I realized you are not here anymore. Homie there is no day where I don’t think of you and wished you would be here. The other day when I heard that song…suddenly…out of the blue…at the mall here, I really thought I am losing my mind. I tried to avoid listening to this for a whole year…and it worked. And now, here I am-miles and miles away from home and suddenly they play that song. You can’t believe how much my heart was hurting. I felt like a piece of me is dying. But I know that this was a sign… you told me that you are here with me. No matter where in this world I am. You protect me. My plan was to find peace and a way to deal with my life and I know that you will help me realizing all that. Und darum bitte ich dich Schatzi, helfe mir aus meiner Trauer zu entfliehen und den Weg zu finden, der mich gluecklich macht. Wir beide wissen, was mir helfen kann und ich bitte dich das fuer mich zu erfuellen. Du bist und bleibst meine große Liebe. Ich liebe Dich und gruesse dich aus der Ferne…und du weißt ja, wo ich bin. In ewiger Liebe